A Question for Bob Marley

This being my first post I feel like I should say something really in depth and really profound. Something that catches people's attention and makes them think, "wow, Erin is such a cool person." But I am not going to try and say anything profound or super deep and quite honestly in this moment I don't care very much if people think that I'm a cool person because I am bored beyond comprehension right now and all of my ability to care has been sucked out by the destructive powers of Boredom!!!

OK, so I work in the Pro Shop at Oakview Golf Course and I love my job for the most part. I answer the phone, take tee times, deal with golfers and keep the course flowing smoothly. I love interacting with people and am a fairly high capacity person...which is why I am going out of my mind. You see, it has been a very cold spring which deters many golfers which means my days are spend reading, making cards, drawing, staring at the wall, sneeking bread out of the kitech to feed the ducks and the new cat that I found the other day, watching the squirrel get chased by the blackbird, and as of late, watching my Telecourse on my lap top for a University credit. You see that wouldn't be so bad except that when I get home I have nothing to do either. I really love Altona (boy never thought I'd admit to that) but I do. I have great friends here, love my church, and save a lot of money because there is no where to spend it but THERE IS NOTHING TO DO. A lot of my friends have families of their own (which is awesome and a goal of mine in the DISTANT DISTANT future...yup I think I can see it....nope I lost it....oh oh there it is) and my other friends live in other towns and cities. So that leaves me....alone and bored at work and alone and bored at home. I don't want to sound like a pessimist because I am usually a very optimistic person but I am really struggling with what to do about this space that I'm in. I'm looking at my day planner and there's nothing for tomorrow, work on Sunday morning and I am busy in the afternoon with nothing. Monday looks pretty packed with a lot of nothing after work followed with Tuesday which I can once again look forward to a nice evening of nothing.

Please read this post as more of a venting post then a message I am trying to send. I just finished watching a marathon of The Office and have realized my need of the outside world. I just finished the end of the second season and have no more seasons to watch on DVD and I feel a void. When I switched off the TV I was so sad to know that Jim and Pam weren't actually my friends (I think we would get along great by the way). Oh and A+ Office crew for playing the song "By the Skin of my Yellow Country Teeth" in the Email Surveillance Episode, can anyone say Clap Your Hands and Say Yeah (FYI that's the name of the group). So it is official, I need some sort of social intervention or I might slip into madness. God how do your immerse yourself in the present when the present is so hard to like? I know there must be some sort of valuable lesson to be learned during this period of time and I'm hardly ever satisfied with any season that I am in but I can't help but wish there was more in my life. Not more involvements or commitments but I think I just want more community. I have a better perspective of life when I'm living in community. The times in my life when I have felt the best have been when I can just be with people and vice versa... natural and almost effortless just doing life together. I really think Bob Marley was on to something when he said, "Don't worry...be happy"...so Bob, how do I get there?